"I am the creator of my own life."
Interview from May 14th 2019.
Sarina (24): After school I left my home close to Karlsruhe in 2014
as I started to study apron management at Munich airport where
I have a full-time work since October 2017. But during my studies I
lost more and more the feeling of home, because I lived in Landshut
for work, in Frankfurt for studying and somehow I still lived close to
Karlsruhe. In September 2016 I was frustrated and unhappy
with my life. I didn’t know what I wanted. Then I came in contact with
my inner child for the first time and I realized: I am the creator of my own
life. I decided to take on the responsibility for it and to take care of
myself. Today I feel at home in myself and I love it.
How did you come in touch with Bellydance and what does it give you?
After one year of intense work with the inner child I recognized,
that my body wants to move and that I need to move. So I asked my inner
child what it wants and it told me: "I want to dance! I want to be a belly dancer!"
I couldn’t find attractive classes in my area so I searches online and I
found Essence of Bellydance.
I love it so much and I can’t imagine a life without Bellydance or improvisational
dance anymore! When I dance I feel at home, I feel myself in a deeper way, I feel free.
I really lose myself, I can let go of everything and I can breathe.
I am with me. Dancing is the language of your soul!
It was a spontaneous decision. I didn’t know how it should work without
any dance experience and I was really nervous. But it was one of the best
decisions I ever made in my life. The fun fact is, that I unconsciously
knew I’m a teacher – I just had to figure out, what I really want to
teach: dance, self responsibility and self love.
How did you start and what were the important milestones or turning points
in your dance life so far?
You are a certified Essence of Bellydance teacher since 2018.
How did you benefit from the training and method?
You love the inner child work and shadow work, can you tell us more
about it and its impact on your life?
The connection to my inner child was the turning point on my journey to
myself. We all have this inner girl or boy which is linked to our
experiences in the past. We internalize lots of dogmas in our childhood
from our environment and ancestors which coin our behavior. We
have to understand that children are curious, creative, open-minded,
funny, sensitive and really wise beings, so we have to take care of them.
At least we have to take care of ourselves. Nobody else is responsible
for your life. Nobody else can heal your inner child and your wounds
except you. You can put the blame on someone else, for example your
parents. But in this moment you’re triggered by your shadow.
shadow sounds evil and frightening but your individual shadow is one of
your best friends. The shadow reflects all your negative and positive parts
or characteristics via other people or happenings. Mostly things you
don’t want to accept or things you’re not aware of. I love
my shadow, because it allows me to grow! My relationships are changing
in a positive way when I’m working with my shadow. It’s freeing and
healing. If you welcome your shadow into your life, you will get a
really deep feeling and understanding of who you really are.
How do you personally use the inner child work? Can you share a
practical exercise with our readers?
Nowadays I have a very good connection with my inner child and
I’m in love with my beautiful, funny, curious, attentive and lovely
girl. If I ever work against her (my) desires, I feel it. Then I go in
meditation and ask: What is wrong? Why do you feel this way? And
I write everything down that comes up without thinking about it.
That’s my tip for everyone: Take an empty book and go into a written
dialogue with your child. For example start with Me (adult):
"Hey girl / boy, I’m not sure if you want to talk to me, but I’m
here and I want to meet you." At the first time you maybe don’t get
an answer, but your intention matters. I also switch the style of
writing: If I am writing as an adult, I write
normal, if my child talks, I write fast and it looks really spidery
How does it tie in with Essence of Bellydance?
In Essence of Bellydance we dive deeper into ourselves and connect
to our body, especially to our pelvic floor. This part is all about
feeling safe, coming home and our emotions. Our inner child is a part
of us but most people are focused on the outside, that shows for example in
performance pressure and I-have-to-thinking. We lose or feeling of safety,
we bar out our emotions and finally we bar out our inner child.
Essence of Bellydance is wonderful for getting in contact with
your inner child in a very sensitive, cautious and sensual way.
Last year I was dancing at my father’s birthday in front of nearly
50 people. My brother was playing the guitar – "Fear of the dark" by
Iron Maiden – and we couldn’t practice together before. It was an
improvisation dance and I loved it, it was fantastic!
Is there something you regret?
No. When I look back I know that everything has happened for a reason.
You’re the creator of your own life, your thoughts and your behavior
create your reality and you can trust your life – it always has an
answer to all your questions. Maybe it needs some time until you
understand the meaning and why things happen as they do. But
there’s so much more surrounding us then only the things we see.
I am walking the path of forgiveness and sometimes it’s really hard
and you feel lost – but at the same time it’s the path of healing.
What 3 tips would you like to share with women who want to
pursue a similar dream?
1. Forgive the people surrounding you and especially yourself.
It’s a lifestyle and you will forgive until you die but true forgiveness
frees your soul and heals you.
2. Write. Write everything down that comes into your mind, even if
you don’t understand the meaning yet. Sentences, only a word...
whatever. Just write.
3. Your shadow is your friend. Trust him. Listen to him. Free him.
How does a day in your life look like?
Every day it’s very different. But I take time for myself every day. Maybe
only a few minutes or some hours ... It doesn’t matter,
because it’s my time. Nevertheless I love moving my body or yoga
in the morning to wake up in a sensitive way. I meditate
in silence when I’m coming home from work. Sometimes I do an active
meditation if there are too many thoughts on my mind, so I can
free the emotions.
During my work I try to move as much as possible
and in meetings I like to connect to my pelvic floor to be more
present or I concentrate on my breath. And I dance - in the bathroom
while listening to the radio, in front of my dance mirror or when
walking from one room to another. For the rest of the
day I trust my soul and my body – they know what they want to do.
What are the 3 books that shaped your life?
"Healing Your Aloneness: Finding Love and Wholeness Through Your Inner Child"
by Erika J. Chopich and Margaret Paul
"Soul on Fire. True Life Manifesto" by Veit Lindau
"Veronika Decides to Die" by Paulo Coelho
...and all my diaries. I wouldn’t be the one I am without them.
What is your vision for the future?
Sharing my love with the world. My life motto is: Know thyself.
Look at yourself and listen to your heart, feel your body, your
mind and your soul. Trust yourself and trust your life. Every
human being has the possibility to create a life of love, luck
and happiness, to create the life he or she wants. I want to guide
men and women on this wonderful journey of self-love. Love is the most
incredible power of the universe. If you love yourself truly, you’ll
find a new connection to all human beings, animals, the environment
and the world. You’ll find yourself.
Thank you so much for the interview Sarina. You are an Inspiration!
Do you love to dance and want to inspire other women?
Then join our international community of excellent dance teachers and start teaching your own Essence of Bellydance classes.
You can do it!